I feel like making The Fresh Princess of the Valley RemiX CD... Bffz they just dont understand. LOL ***Way off topic but speaking of Fresh Prince, HI RoSS bka Lil Nicki*** Kellz hopefully you can understand now:
I believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason whether negative or positive. && things that happen were set to happen. But at the same time, I do think that you can alter your destiny. Kinda contradicting. Whatever.
Every1 close to me is like kidd wtf is wrong with you. Trynna figure it out. Kellz is screaming from the mountain tops "KiDD! you can't be fuckin' serious dude. Thats not even your type! What the fuck! Snap outta this shit. You dont REALLY"...blah blah.
LOL. But my abuela (grandmother) can always tell when something is bothering me. She is like I don't even want to know, but "uno puede encontrar su destino en el camino que tomaron para evitarlo". Meaning one sometimes can find their destiny on the road they took to avoid it.
I didn't even have to tell her what it was even about. Damn! Very strange and wise lady. I was like damn how does she know that I avoided something, and it is bothering me.
Then simultaneously I see something, and I'm like huh. Its a round about compliment that goes on to say BUT blah blah... But always takes whatever the topic was way in left field. The fact that THIS person said that is dope because I totally adore him. BUT what the hell does he mean BUT? The word but is placed as a comparison. Oh no guy don't do that! Especially Because this person has gained this position that I have never applied for. A title that I never wanted, or even crossed my mind. So there shouldn't be a but. At least in my mind.
The word one word this significant person was defined as is all glorified. Im like awww hell nah. LOL. So I hit him like...
The difference between truth and fiction is,
fiction has to make sense.
Truth goes hand in hand with trust.
Yet there is no such thing as trust.
People work off of their true interest,
which is the bond of all relationships.
&& he replies
one has to make their own truth
before they can consider "it" the truth...
"" was changed.
So thats where the exchange of messages left off. Then as I am closing my inbox, I see read your daily horoscope. So I read mine:
2.25.09 Although you might want to explore an impulsive feeling today, responsibilities at work prevent you from having fun. But having a lot of chores to do won't necessarily stop you from talking about your desires. Sharing your dreams with your friends or with someone special can be just the diversion you need, yet it's very different than actually putting your thoughts into action.
Yesterday I was hott. I was so interested in what THAT person had to say it diverted my anger from my car. && it was EASY talking about wanting to see that "dream" person, but when he became a "reality" I backed out. Get it???
Then my horoscope today [2.26.09] says:
Today you might not have much time to think about what comes next. You've barely completed a project or put a personal issue to rest and now something new comes at you. Your greatest strength is the speed at which you can react when the Moon is in spontaneous Aries. Don't think about what you should do; just do it. You can always make corrections to your impulsive behavior later, if needed.
I shouldn't have to explain how this relates but, you know I was kinda buggin' like damn what if I would have went. Would that have not happened? And worried about never knowing. Like I'd hate to look back like what if. But when he said he respected my decision, I laid the worry to rest. SPEED. I am really quick. I should have just went, and it would hav been what it was so the what If's wont haunt me. What if is a motha fucka. Basically, I should have went. DUH.
Putting that with what Abuela said, I avoided it, and maybe I will meet "the dream" on the exact path that I took to avoid it. This is the optomistic me. Get it? But maybe he met his destiny. DAMN!!! LOL. If he is floating on cloud 9, then thats cool too. The fact that I can even exchange brief strange random words with this person is enough for me. Maybe I just like being mind fucked by this person. Whatever LOL. And the thought of maybe even building a friendship with this person is great. I have many other associates like this person, but he is different. The ones I'm around are all the same, hung up on material things that at the end of the day stands for nothing. Living in LA, I am around alot of superficial things/people. Although this person does the same thing as people I consider close friends, he symbolizes something way different.
His horoscope said 2.25.09
You may differ in opinion today from your peers, but this doesn't mean you should simply agree with them. Your perspective may be more acute than everyone else's, yet it still might not be a good idea to set them straight. Don't just acquiesce. But believing that you can change anyone's mind with smart thinking and logic is impractical. Let others know where you stand and then leave it alone. They will change their minds when they are ready and not before.
His acute perspective is the very reason I always get mind fucked. LOL.
His horoscope today 2.26.09
You are less restrained now in the expression of your feelings because you don't think you have to worry about any negative judgment from others. You may even be gleeful as you purposefully step over the edge of acceptability for the shock value of it. Fortunately, you won't require criticism from anyone else today. You are able to quickly discern where you need to focus your attention and how to modify your behavior to get what you need.
I doubt that he didn't recieve any criticism today. But Shout outs to Ricki Levine the horoscope writer.
In conclusion, I dont like him anymore. Hey what did you expect? Imma Valley Girl. We move on with that supersonic speed. LOL We change loves like we change panties. Im just talking shit. LOL. Hope to see you on that road Dude :) smile :)
Wait... Did I even like this guy??? Remains a mystery. When was the Exact point I said I liked him Kellz? wtF haha.
RipPaz Hit My Sidekick!!!
4 comments:
im confused. i feel like its to many THATS and HIMS and codes. and i cant follow. hmmm.........i dont know if its a good thing that you moved on or bad. if it was needed or not. i feel like u really did like him. this is a long as blog about HIM for sure.
the thing that you were talking about where you can comment on stuff without it being a comment to a blog is called my aim. cadillac40ap. hahaha... maybe you can help me in my confusion on that post there
latte...
loL
No one else will EVER get it. Expect for Kellz and HIM. && I highly doubt that HE will ever be on my blog to read it.
That entry was specifically for my BFF. I wouldn't consider it moving on cuz I never had a relationship with HIM. I guess you can say it was basically some closure I needed. He is a interesting person that became a dream, then the dream became a reality.
Dont worry about it. I cant figure it out myself. LOL
Like I think you should know when you started liking some1 so u can know when to stop. I dont even know when I started to like him. I just think he's dope. I just don't know. LOL. He's just dope. LOL. && I wouldnt necessarily even say that I like HIM, I more like his struggle. Of where he has came from and what he has been thru to what he is now.I have pretty much been catered to all my life. && so have ALL my friends. Everything came easy, no real struggles. Like the hardest thing I have to worry about is what imma wear, or what should I eat, or how should I comb my hair. So to hear that he is as strong as he is now is like WOW.
If any of that even makes sense.
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