CoNfeSsioNz oF a ValleY GirL: love for a stranger

Got me addicted, so im a frequent to his 24 hour coffee shop
Had one taste && now I just cant stop

Apple, Toffee, Boisenberry
Kellz said he looked like dirty larry

Got me hooked, like a never ending book.
Love his mind, gotta make him mine

Mocha, Hazelnut, Irish Creme
I'm certain he's the boy 4rm my dream

Savor his flavor from top to bottom
Wish I was the one who could say I got em

Strawberry, Peppermint, Amaretto
Sip him slow && listen to the flow

With just one taste of Chocolate Mint
I could tell this boy was Heaven sent

Cinnamon, Almond, Caramel
Love locked down in a cell

Sit in the coffee shop and drift away
No matter the price I will pay

Lemon, Black Cherry, Butter Rum
Can't wait for the next entry to come

Sit in the internet cafe and blog away
This guy is dope I must say

Cherry, Macadamia Nut, Chocolate Cake
To see what he's thinking I cant wait

Morning, Noon or Night I can be found
just listening to his sound

Walnut, White Chocolate, Cookie Dough
things running thru his mind I just dont know

This flavor or sound isn't easily found
This has to be the best place in town

Blue Curacao, Almond Mocha, Peanut butter
I see him && my heart begins to flutter

I must say the waiter is pretty cute
He dresses like a hippy, but in a suit

Guava, Huckleberry, Grape
My mind is here for you to take

There's just so much he has to say
Can't get the full experience in one day.

...To Be Continued...

SiDebaR: Latte... It kinda turned into a poem huh. But its for you so thats what matters. LMMFAO. Ok ok... U got me writing is HARD. To everyone that read that, I DO NOT WRITE, its a rough draft, and I made that while listening to Neverland, and the song went off. LOL Then I found my Trina Glamorest Life, and you cannot be sweet while being a bad bitch, so I will finish it later. LOL

NOTE 2 SELF: Keep yo fat ass outta StarBucks! Shame I know all the flavors and never worked there. LOL. But in my own defense I can say that if you ever are in LAX Terminal 8, you will find ALL the employees in there.

I feel like making The Fresh Princess of the Valley RemiX CD... Bffz they just dont understand. LOL ***Way off topic but speaking of Fresh Prince, HI RoSS bka Lil Nicki*** Kellz hopefully you can understand now:

I believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason whether negative or positive. && things that happen were set to happen. But at the same time, I do think that you can alter your destiny. Kinda contradicting. Whatever.

Every1 close to me is like kidd wtf is wrong with you. Trynna figure it out. Kellz is screaming from the mountain tops "KiDD! you can't be fuckin' serious dude. Thats not even your type! What the fuck! Snap outta this shit. You dont REALLY"...blah blah.
LOL. But my abuela (grandmother) can always tell when something is bothering me. She is like I don't even want to know, but "uno puede encontrar su destino en el camino que tomaron para evitarlo". Meaning one sometimes can find their destiny on the road they took to avoid it.

I didn't even have to tell her what it was even about. Damn! Very strange and wise lady. I was like damn how does she know that I avoided something, and it is bothering me.

Then simultaneously I see something, and I'm like huh. Its a round about compliment that goes on to say BUT blah blah... But always takes whatever the topic was way in left field. The fact that THIS person said that is dope because I totally adore him. BUT what the hell does he mean BUT? The word but is placed as a comparison. Oh no guy don't do that! Especially Because this person has gained this position that I have never applied for. A title that I never wanted, or even crossed my mind. So there shouldn't be a but. At least in my mind.

The word one word this significant person was defined as is all glorified. Im like awww hell nah. LOL. So I hit him like...

The difference between truth and fiction is,
fiction has to make sense.
Truth goes hand in hand with trust.
Yet there is no such thing as trust.
People work off of their true interest,
which is the bond of all relationships.

&& he replies

one has to make their own truth
before they can consider "it" the truth...

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So thats where the exchange of messages left off. Then as I am closing my inbox, I see read your daily horoscope. So I read mine:

2.25.09 Although you might want to explore an impulsive feeling today, responsibilities at work prevent you from having fun. But having a lot of chores to do won't necessarily stop you from talking about your desires. Sharing your dreams with your friends or with someone special can be just the diversion you need, yet it's very different than actually putting your thoughts into action.

Yesterday I was hott. I was so interested in what THAT person had to say it diverted my anger from my car. && it was EASY talking about wanting to see that "dream" person, but when he became a "reality" I backed out. Get it???

Then my horoscope today [2.26.09] says:

Today you might not have much time to think about what comes next. You've barely completed a project or put a personal issue to rest and now something new comes at you. Your greatest strength is the speed at which you can react when the Moon is in spontaneous Aries. Don't think about what you should do; just do it. You can always make corrections to your impulsive behavior later, if needed.

I shouldn't have to explain how this relates but, you know I was kinda buggin' like damn what if I would have went. Would that have not happened? And worried about never knowing. Like I'd hate to look back like what if. But when he said he respected my decision, I laid the worry to rest. SPEED. I am really quick. I should have just went, and it would hav been what it was so the what If's wont haunt me. What if is a motha fucka. Basically, I should have went. DUH.

Putting that with what Abuela said, I avoided it, and maybe I will meet "the dream" on the exact path that I took to avoid it. This is the optomistic me. Get it? But maybe he met his destiny. DAMN!!! LOL. If he is floating on cloud 9, then thats cool too. The fact that I can even exchange brief strange random words with this person is enough for me. Maybe I just like being mind fucked by this person. Whatever LOL. And the thought of maybe even building a friendship with this person is great. I have many other associates like this person, but he is different. The ones I'm around are all the same, hung up on material things that at the end of the day stands for nothing. Living in LA, I am around alot of superficial things/people. Although this person does the same thing as people I consider close friends, he symbolizes something way different.

His horoscope said 2.25.09

You may differ in opinion today from your peers, but this doesn't mean you should simply agree with them. Your perspective may be more acute than everyone else's, yet it still might not be a good idea to set them straight. Don't just acquiesce. But believing that you can change anyone's mind with smart thinking and logic is impractical. Let others know where you stand and then leave it alone. They will change their minds when they are ready and not before.

His acute perspective is the very reason I always get mind fucked. LOL.

His horoscope today 2.26.09

You are less restrained now in the expression of your feelings because you don't think you have to worry about any negative judgment from others. You may even be gleeful as you purposefully step over the edge of acceptability for the shock value of it. Fortunately, you won't require criticism from anyone else today. You are able to quickly discern where you need to focus your attention and how to modify your behavior to get what you need.

I doubt that he didn't recieve any criticism today. But Shout outs to Ricki Levine the horoscope writer.

In conclusion, I dont like him anymore. Hey what did you expect? Imma Valley Girl. We move on with that supersonic speed. LOL We change loves like we change panties. Im just talking shit. LOL. Hope to see you on that road Dude :) smile :)
Wait... Did I even like this guy??? Remains a mystery. When was the Exact point I said I liked him Kellz? wtF haha.

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